There’s a list of bands in the links page, mostly bands that appear on this blog, or that don’t often show up here, but who I listen to– every day, or once in a while-. I’m working on compiling as many as possible. It’s becoming a kind of menu; if a Visualist doesn’t know where to go from here [wherever they are], they can move through the menu, picking out names that attract them. Perhaps they can find a good band that way.
When a group goes on hiatus or disbands, I usually note their status. It’s like a warning: this group comes with the handicap that it is gone now.
When I wake up in the morning and check the blogs, check Twitter (the Visualist’s version of the Morning Paper), a red flag goes up whenever the words “hiatus” and “disband” appear, much the same as the words “natural disaster” and “earthquake” solicit concern and horror in the hearts of normies. Obviously it’s not the same– no one has lost their lives. Actually, that’s not true– a band has lost its [continuous] life. Visualists have lost a lot of lives, if you know what I mean.
I don’t usually have emotions– like a good villain, I wouldn’t actually be able to recognize one if I had it. (Which I think is actually known across the web to be untrue, given that I wallow in a lot of soul-searching emoism through my life as a Visualist) That being said, there are some occasions when I have reactions to things. A text message at 8:30 this morning saying, in effect, that D’espairsRay is no more, is one of those occasions.
As much as I hate to say it, as much as I hate to put a red marker by that name, it was announced today, June 15th 2011, that after 11 years of solid, honestly badass Visual Kei, D’espairsRay will be disbanding immediately.
The following messages were posted on their OHP and MS this morning:
“For the treatment of my throat we have gone on an infinite hiatus and while having undergone acupuncture, chiropractic and Qigong, even now the restoration of it is not yet in sight. As a result of the talks with all four members and since we can’t revive activities like this, it is like a natural extinction. We came to the conclusion that we should break this up with dignity.
Please, everyone, who had hoped for our return, forgive us this betrayal it has become.
Unfortunately we also can’t be doing a final live, but I hope we can return something to you in a different shape.
With the beginning of this band, a number of meetings have come about and through joyful, sad and tough times, there hadn’t been a single superfluous experience.
Thank you to everyone who loved D’espairsRay for these 11 years.”
Before I close out this post in order to cancel my appointments for the rest of the week so that I can wallow and mourn– throughout this post I’ve been trying to figure out, there’s something, some kind of message, that I want to express here for Visualists. That, through the myriad of disappointment, sadness, and regret, perhaps there is something, some glimmer, that can provide some kind of vertebrae from which we can build and sustain the backbone of D’espairsRay‘s following.
Although there won’t be new releases. There won’t be exciting news. There won’t be more tours, more lives, more events. All that constant, continuous North Star of anticipation and tension that carries Visualists from tour to tour, single to album, has, in so many ways, flickered and gone out– all of which is, especially in this case, a loss that can’t really be expressed– that, really, D’espairsRay as a collective unit and its members as individuals, probably need our support now more than ever. Although it feels conclusive, this “disbandment”. Although it rings as synonymously as “The End” as probably we could imagine. They only disappear from the industry, they only vanish from the constellation in the creative universe that is Visual Kei if we let their light go out.
As long as we carry on, hearing their music over and over again as if it’s the first time. As long as we carry on supporting them. As long as we rally together and, as I said before when they announced their hiatus, continue to support and rally around D’espairsRay and HIZUMI, causing such a universal uproar that his condition has no choice but to completely and permanently heal, bringing the band and their epicness back to us. Although we probably can’t bring them back anymore, we can be a a sky that lets the stars of their legacy shine on– and as long as that light never goes out in our hearts, it can never disappear.
Thanks to Kaxxina.
Sources: MusicJapan+, D’espairsRay OHP, and D’espairsRay Official MS