I’m not sure when exactly it happened, but somewhere along the way I stopped announcing new releases and scathing reviews of Jrockian hairstyles, and went off on some however-many-months-long soul-searching tangent of meaningful posts that I hope had something to do with Visual Kei.
I’m not sure what exactly happened. All the bands I like started disbanding and going on hiatus or coming down with strange medical conditions, and then we saw the negative polarity of role-model-ism, whereupon all the bloggers started following suit. Half the blogs on my RSS menu haven’t updated in months. I haven’t been excessively active myself, this is true, but I’ll say this now, it’s always harder to self-motivate.
And if I’ve learned anything about myself through all this soul-searching, it’s that I might have some issues with self-motivation.
Last year I remember quite a few fledgling blogs popping up that I enjoyed watching grow and develop, their readership expanding– many of the people who read my blog would show up on the other blogs as well, on Twitter, etc., and there was something inspiring, motivating, and just sort of cool about seeing this bona fide Visual Kei community growing, and it was def sweet being a part of it.
There’s something good about the feeling of a new release dropping and knowing that a week later you’ll have a dozen different reviews to read and your own to write. There’s a velocity to it, an energetic surge that really brings the whole process to life. That’s cool.
But that being said, I’ll be the first to sympathize with the fact that juggling a functioning real
mundane life and a blog can be difficult. (By the way, if you’re starting to feel depressed reading this, don’t give up yet. I promise to feign positivity before this reaches 1,000 words. In the meantime, I’ll keep typing myself into ennui). But I suppose what I started asking myself recently was, have I been slacking? Or are we simply experiencing some serious industry down-time? (The former only applies, by the way, if the latter is not applicable. You see, if we are experiencing industry down-time, then my feel-good [this one doesn’t count] rantings actually make me come appear productive).
They’re both distinct possibilities, but I have a feeling if anything really exciting had happened (such as a D’espairsRay comeback or the advent of some mind-blowing new band), I have a feeling I wouldn’t be waking up in such a state of confusion every day, wondering why CDJapan hasn’t made me go bankrupt yet.
Another possibility is that I haven’t totally worked through my quarter-life-crisis yet.
There may, however, be at least a single glimmer of light at the end of this dark tunnel. While we’ve been scavenging good grades and looking for day-jobs, GACKT has been finding time between fundraising outings to compose some new songs and put out a brand-new single right in time (well, a little belated, but happens to the best of us) to celebrate his birthday. The single, title yet to be announced, will drop on July 13*. You can pre-order the limited edition with DVD through the link below: